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The voice was calm, natural, and even a little gentle.
However, teacher Lu was so shocked that she could not even catch her breath. She grabbed Lu Xinâs arm so tightly that her knuckles turned white.
A huge panic enveloped her. She wanted to pull her hand back, but she didnât even have the strength to do so.
On the surface, both of them seemed very calm.
Teacher Luâs hand was only holding onto Lu Xinâs arm, but because she was too tired, she seemed to be more relaxed.
Their eyes met, and the setting sun shone outside the window.
âItâs really strange âŠâ
Lu Xin continued, â Iâve never been able to recall those memories for so many years. However, when I do, I find that every single detail of what had happened was crystal clear. I can even remember how I felt at that time. I can remember the feeling of each and every one of them dying by my hands. I can also remember the expression on their faces when they looked at me before they died âŠ
Teacher Lu suddenly covered her mouth with her hands, not letting herself make any sound.
However, her shoulders were shaking violently.
Lu Xin turned around calmly and raised his hand slightly, as if he was going to stroke her hair.
However, he still gave up.
He sighed softly. but what Iâm most curious about is that in this memory, my own feelings, my mind, and even the clear scenes of those things that happened at that time, itâs like Iâve gone back in time.
in that memory, Iâve been killing people âŠ
but I donât remember feeling any regret or pain when I killed them. I âŠ
âStop âŠâ
Teacher Luâs trembling voice suddenly rang out. Her throat was tight and her
body was shaking violently.
His voice seemed to be pleading, ââPlease, please, donât say anymore âŠâ
Lu Xin hesitated for a moment before slowly saying, â but I really donât know who to talk to âŠ
He looked at teacher Lu with a strange look in his eyes and whispered, â when I thought of these things, I understood more things. I finally knew that I had experienced such things before. I had already gone crazy âŠ
at the same time, I also understand why youâre afraid of me. Is this the reason?
Teacher Luâs body trembled violently. She shook her head and seemed to be sobbing, but she did not answer.
I can understand, I can really understand âŠ
Lu Xin repeated the words twice, as if to comfort her. He then whispered, â at that time, 1 didnât know that you were afraid of me. Probably because I didnât want to remember, my memory stopped at that bloody scene. 1 donât remember why I left the orphanage at that time, and I donât know how you survived in that serious situation âŠ
I donât even know how I got through that period of time, and how I started going to school and working. Itâs like after the orphanage incident, many years have passed in. flash. Now. my clear memory starts from a rainy night. That day. I had just finished working overtime and was taking the subway home when. suddenly met you, so I smiled and greeted you âŠ
She wondered if Lu Xinâs words had brought her back to that rainy night.
Her body trembled violently. Although she was covering her mouth, her face was still pale.
Lu Xin didnât seem to be looking at her, but he was able to see every expression on her face.
He was silent for a while, his eyes filled with deep sadness.
However, the expression on his face was somewhat out of his control. It was calm, but it also seemed a little strange.
That seemed to be ⊠Mocking?
âItâs really strange that you didnât run away at that time
âNo⊠Itâs not âŠâ
Lu Xinâs arm trembled. She put down her hand that was covering her mouth.
His face was pale, but there was an unnatural flush on it, which was a sign of abnormal excitement.
She cut Lu Xin off with force. Her usually beautiful and gentle face was now filled with rare anger.
He used all his strength to shout, ââSo you âŠâ
âSo everything you did after that was to make up for it?â all these years, youâve been saving and taking care of us just to make it up to us? â
â..â
It was rare for Lu to show such an expression of anger, so Lu Xin was slightly stunned.
He seemed to be a little unaccustomed to it, but this made him have a kind of calm expression.
He looked at teacher Luâs Red eyes and said softly, ââlf Iâm making it up to you, whatâs wrong with that?â no, itâs completely wrong âŠ
Teacher Lu shouted, her hands clenched tightly and her ears turned red. It was obvious how hard she was using her strength. I donât want your compensation, and they donât want your compensation either. What you did at that time will never be compensated âŠ
There was a power to his words, and Lu Xin didnât know how to respond.
Looking into teacher Luâs eyes, he seemed to be a little confused.âThen you areâŠâ
Teacher Luâs face was full of tears.âAll I want is for you to come back âŠâ
âl only hope that the original you âŠâ
âCome back âŠ
This answer was completely out of Lu Xinâs expectations, and he even asked with some difficulty, ââMy original self?â âWhat does it look like?â
âThe original you is the current you âŠâ
Teacher Lu clenched her fists so that she could continue. I-I donât know what the hell youâre thinking of, but I-I have my own judgment. I remember when I was taken to the orphanage. I met you strange children there. 1 could tell from the beginning that you were different from other children, each and every one of you was different âŠ
some of them make me feel very scared. They look quiet, but theyâre scarier than the gangsters who Rob people on the street.
youâre the only one whoâs different. Youâre the quietest one among the children âŠ
youâre very well-behaved and honest. The older children donât play with you much, so you also seem very âŠ
. Iâm lonely!â
I was picked up from the streets. Iâve been hungry for many days. I still remember the first time I saw food. I ⊠At that time, I never had enough to eat. If someone had food in their hands, I would definitely snatch it and stuff it into my mouth.â
so, I remember that Iâve robbed many peopleâs things, and Iâve also been beaten up by others âŠ
the older children call me a lunatic, and the younger children are also avoiding me âŠ
only you, only you arenât angry when I snatch your things . . .
youâre the only one who took the initiative to pull me up when I was knocked down by others âŠ
Teacher Lu spoke intermittently. Every word was spoken very loudly. She was using all her strength to defend the truth.
so, so what happened after that was definitely not you âŠ
She raised her head and glared at Lu Xin with a menacing look. those people must have done something to you. After all, Iâve seen you being pushed into the basement countless times, and Iâve also seen fresh wounds and needle marks on you countless times âŠ
âAfter all, that incident happened three days after you were locked up âŠâ
Because she had been speaking so loudly, her breathing was not smooth. She panted a few times, and her body seemed to be a little weak.
Lu Xin hesitated for a moment before raising his hand and patting her back.
When he patted her for the first time, teacher Lu straightened her back and her eyes were sharp.
She looked at Lu Xin with an unquestionable gaze, wasnât afraid when 1 saw you again.â
She seemed to be loudly announcing,âl didnât!â
I just want to know if youâve returned âŠ
B-because Iâve experienced what I thought was the best place in the world, only to find out that it was a hellish process. So, so 1 decided that I would build such a beautiful place myself, I ⊠Iâm stupid and useless. I can barely maintain this orphanage with your help, but no matter what, the orphanage is done âŠâ then, I only have one wish left, the you from before, the gentle and kind you âŠ
âAre you still there?â
âYou, are you still that you?â
Lu Xinâs heart seemed to have been touched by her words.
In his calm mood, there was a faint splash of waves.
He raised his head and looked out the window. The setting sun was like blood, but it was still bright enough to hurt people.
So he closed his eyes slightly, and the distant memories were pulled back to him. He remembered that night full of cries and screams, and the smell of blood. He remembered that everywhere he walked, there was blood everywhere. He remembered the sound of bones breaking, and the steel bars and cement of the building were twisted and broken. He remembered the blood-covered faces, and the laughter âŠ
This caused his headache to act up again. The blood vessels at his temples were blocked, and it was uncomfortable.
His eyes started to lose focus again, but teacher Luâs determined eyes were still looking at him.
She was still waiting for her answer.
She was questioning herself.
Lu Xin really wanted to answer her, but his mind was in a mess.
When he opened his mouth, he realized that his voice was a little hoarse, so he shut up and adjusted his voice.
Then, he gave what he thought was the most honest answer, â I may have always been myself âŠ
âBut . . . n
He paused for a moment, knocked his head lightly, and said, ââlâve got a little problem,â
Teacher Xiaolu pursed her lips. Her eyes were filled with fear and worry. However, her worry prevailed.
Tears were still in her eyes, but her eyes were obviously frightening.
Lu Xin didnât even want to look at those eyes.
He slowly turned around and walked out of the room in silence. When he reached the door, he stopped.
âl will work hard to cure myself..â
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